A couple days old
28 June 2008
Sorry, this post was meant to be posted two days ago. I didn't have the time to copy and paste it over! I was without connection.
The county fair starts today, but it sounds just like it would any of the other years. I won't be attending because I'm going to go thrift store shopping with my sister. She needs some furniture. My younger sister is going to the fair with her boyfriend, but she wanted to go thrifting too. She can't do both!
Since our house is still doing the spiritual boundary ceremony, we couldn't have our barbecue until after 5:00pm. A lot of family came that I haven't seen for a while, some last summer, and some since Spring Break. My one year old niece Jasmine can walk now!
At any rate, I need to go clean things up. It's quite a mess out in the backyard: many cups and plates and empty soda cans and water bottles. Hmm!
But yesterday I saw Wall-e. It's a great silent film, if you'd like to call it that. It was sweet, heart warming, and a thrill to watch. It's definitely worth buying.
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Grumble Grates
24 June 2008
I started rereading my posts and some of them were really bad. I have bland English at times. The deeper posts have more interesting content, as usual, or maybe I only find them great because I could easily relate to it. Afterall, I did write them.
Well journal, did I ever tell you that I started getting into polymer clay? No, I didn't jump into a pool of Sculpey or anything, but I found a new crafting hobby. It sort of merged in with my jewelry making interest as well because they require a lot of the same tools and materials. I found too many hobbies this past year: felt plushies, fleece plushies, polymer claying, jewelry crafting, baking, biking, playing guitar, and photographing. I also left no time to update you and make you look all pretty. Writing in you is really great too because I like to read my old posts. It's funny learning about myself!
I'm back home for three more days. My mom was supposed to make pho tonight because my brother and I are visiting, but instead she killed a couple of chickens. There was apparently a state-wide Cha Clan event going on where houses get cleansed from spirits... or something. I'm not quite sure. I'm losing touch with my Hmong! At any rate, chickens are a formal ceremonial food to eat for events such as these. We also placed a lot of leaves at our front door and gate.
I'm tired and scared about thinking about my future. I need to take the GREs this year and I need to study for them. Standardized tests are so stressful just because they basically determine what you do, will do, where you will go and how your life will look later on down the road. I've been researching grad schools since last summer too, but everybody thought I was just being too paranoid about things. I was and still am! It's a big step for me, universes larger than me getting into college. In high school I really didn't know what I was doing. I don't want to brag or anything, but all of the scholarships and universities I applied to accepted me and rewarded me. It just wasn't difficult then, for me, because I did what needed to be done. I did everything on my own as well because my parents can't speak English. I never asked them for a cent for college, not even for food or clothes. But now... it seems like it shouldn't be much different, but I think I'm just afraid of growing up and HAVING to make those important life impacting choices.
What school should I go to? Where should I go? Where do I live? What should I study? Is that what I really want to do? Is that my passion? Am I just too competitive? Am I scaring myself? Do I have the motivation? Would I rather do something else?
A lot of this has to do with the bloody scholarship that I got. It pays for graduate school, basically another full-ride. Hundreds of thousands of other students would die for this chance and I don't feel like giving it up. It's pretty sad if I force myself to go to grad school out of guilt. At least I still have some time to figure things out and build my passion. This extra guilt will probably be what pushes me in that direction.
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