I should start one of those “one creative thing” a day type of thing so I’m more motivated to exercise that dying right side of my brain.

I should design more layouts so I create more sophisticated looks when people ask me to do things for them

The fleece monster blanket plan only worked for the first day. I should continue that.

So many I should’s. I need to just do them and not worry about things I could have done.
I need to stop wasting time!

Well, speaking of getting creative… I’m going to dress up as Zoey from Left 4 Dead this Halloween. Specific details on the costume and its making will come up soon.

Remember when I would have those hiccup attacks that would last all day? I found a way to cure them. When I was taking aikido I learned ways to control my breathing and becoming conscious of it. When I start to get hiccups, I roll my shoulders back and at the same time while doing it, I take a deep breath. I hold it in for about 5 seconds and slowly push it down toward my center (right below my belly button).

It works like a charm! I only have to do it three times too. Im happy I dont have to hiccup all the time anymore. So when I do get hiccups, I just aikido breathe and its gone!

Thought I’d share and it might be useful for you too.

Xinair got a new face lift and I’m finally almost content with it. I was exited to start redesigning it but once I got close to the point of how I liked it to be, I started getting unmotivated again. I have a very loose sense of excitement for designing (or drawing) anything these days and it’s quite depressing. I don’t like it! But I can’t help but just feel the way I do. It’s lame.

Sometimes I wish I could customize my brain to think certain ways.

But I guess I’m just getting old. I’m not exciting anymore! Maybe it’s because I’ve lost patience for doing things. Drawing takes a lot of time and maybe I don’t like doing it anymore because it takes a long time for me to be satisfied with what I have. I’m a perfectionist, I know it. It was also recently that I started to trash things I didn’t like. I used to always keep everything I worked on because they were important in some way. Say… I spent a couple hours on a drawing of a person that looked like crap. It’s okay, at least I learned why it looked like garbage. But it’s okay if I keep it because it contains a list of lessons learned: Don’t suck when drawing.

Well, that probably didn’t make any sense, but I felt like it was somewhat leaning towards what I really wanted to say. Anyways, I planned on maybe some downloadable layouts for people to use. When and where they will be up and located has yet to be determined. We’ll see!