Xinair got a new face lift and I’m finally almost content with it. I was exited to start redesigning it but once I got close to the point of how I liked it to be, I started getting unmotivated again. I have a very loose sense of excitement for designing (or drawing) anything these days and it’s quite depressing. I don’t like it! But I can’t help but just feel the way I do. It’s lame.

Sometimes I wish I could customize my brain to think certain ways.

But I guess I’m just getting old. I’m not exciting anymore! Maybe it’s because I’ve lost patience for doing things. Drawing takes a lot of time and maybe I don’t like doing it anymore because it takes a long time for me to be satisfied with what I have. I’m a perfectionist, I know it. It was also recently that I started to trash things I didn’t like. I used to always keep everything I worked on because they were important in some way. Say… I spent a couple hours on a drawing of a person that looked like crap. It’s okay, at least I learned why it looked like garbage. But it’s okay if I keep it because it contains a list of lessons learned: Don’t suck when drawing.

Well, that probably didn’t make any sense, but I felt like it was somewhat leaning towards what I really wanted to say. Anyways, I planned on maybe some downloadable layouts for people to use. When and where they will be up and located has yet to be determined. We’ll see!

I just looked out the window to see how sunny it was and a bird just made an awkward back flip. I think the wind disrupted it’s supposedly epic flight maneuvers. I felt sort of embarrassed for it, looked away for half a second, and then looked back. It seemed to pretend nothing happened and flew away like normal. Nature is quirky here and there! At any rate, I haven’t updated this journal in a while and took photos of things that have been happening in this tiny workshop / bedroom / study room / game room / entertainment house of mine. But first things first! I got a gift certificate for presenting my game to prospective transfer students during Engineering Week in Baskin a couple months back. It was only $25 at the bookstore, so it wasn’t enough to buy a dry textbook for next quarter. I browsed the store for more than 5 hours before I found what I wanted to buy.

Ribbon! They cost $5.95 each! They are something I normally would not purchase for myself because they are expensive. Yuck. But I couldn’t resist the dashed pattern. If each roll didn’t come with the dashed design, I probably wouldn’t of bought them! I made a light box the other week as well. I needed a better place to take photos of the charms and jewelry I was making. I went into the box filled garage, grabbed one, started chopping it up with my exacto knife, and taped tissue paper to the sides. This is what it looks like with the ribbon stuck in the inside. I don’t have any other lamps to work with the light box, so no laughing! Below the light box are other examples of photos inside it. The first is of an apple I took from Hindquarter Bar & Grille. We ate there this week for Brian’s birthday. The second is of a Donald Duck candy holder I got from Tryton last Christmas.

Lastly, Tryton’s mom asked me to draw her something ages ago and I haven’t found the motivation to draw something nice. Earlier this month I drew a fairy in a flower and then it changed to a girl standing in an animal floating devise consisting of a shark, seal, fish, bird, and dolphin. Below are photos of it during my process of slowly finishing it. And of course, Tryton wanted me to use the Prismacolor markers he bought me to do the job. I’m really bad at using them effectively, so bare with me! Click the thumbnails to enlarge.

I was supposed to start a felt project today, but I ended up doing laundry and this instead. Maybe I should start now!